A CareGivers Crisis There is only so much one can take and only so strong a person can be. Not only is the weight of the world on my shoulders, a single mother fired from my job for being on FMLA too long.  FMLA- A child’s mental health is a delicate topic. A child that is traumatized and violated by the man she looked up to is an untimely kind of healing.  I started this page to reach out. The local municipalities have truly failed us compared to what is believed to be protected in our country. Child welfare confirmed the allegation, but the perpetrator remained free. My child remained in treatment and hospitals for her 3rd grade and 4th grade year.  I desire to see her move on, but injustice has us all stuck in a time of stagnation unable to thrive. I desire thrive, but with all the extra weight it’s hard not to worry of loosing it all. 89.00 a month in SNAP is what I have been allowed to recieve. I make it work. Living on a fixed income becaus my daughters diagnosis remains unpredictable. To be quite honest, I have no desire to do the things that I normally would to just bounce back from all of this. Everyday the behavior is worse, and it’s mentally exhausting.   I am passionate about education. My coping skill has been to research and learn why, but I haven’t learned “how” to fix this. I have worked very hard keeping my kids on track. My oldest daughter , she Graduates in December. She deserves the world for her hard work during the chaos. It has been a very long and hard 2 and half years since disaster struck.  We don’t have  nearby family, or any true support to help us mentally physically or emotionally. Right now my main issue is financial needs and eviction prevention. Bare minimum basic needs. I am not sure how I am supposed to do this but I am writing with all honesty and in faith. The corruption and conflicts of interests in the justice system is what stole my child’s wellbeing. She was eventually told that they couldn’t move forward (after 22 months of prejudice). We suffered a lot of loss waiting for justice, only to be let down and denied. So here it is, the aftermath. This is my vow to recover if possible. I know that my child’s recovery is simply a mirror of my own. She is currently suffering in a state of cruelty, she needs help. They call it oppositional defiant disorder then it changed to Dyregulated Mood Dysfunction Disorder Along with PTSD I feel it’s deeper than just  “disrespect and misconduct”. She wants to be better and be happy, but she is triggered by the nastiness of the world and can’t control herself.  It’s understandable because she was robbed of her innocents and then lied to by those that are paid to protect her. She takes it out on me because she thinks I must be superwoman and if she only knew I am far from that.  A lawyer would have been great, u fortunately a conflict of interest barred us from our right to low income representation. No Victim advocate because later I find out she was “aquatinted with the suspect”. Small really towns truly disgust me now.  Aside from that my daughter is struggling in school. She was suspended from school the first week this year  for fighting. Today as I write this the just school called me they are concerned with her behavior. I’m so exhausted and a resolution is yet to be found, I continue to rewear and write in hopes the miracle will transpire. We have done everything we were supposed to do, and got left to suffer in silence. As a mother in need of anything to help heal from what seems to be a never ending crisis. Feeling like we are forced to remain is the reality, that I, so desperately, I seek to change.