During Covid-19, our world has flipped over. My husband and I (since we are still being sheltered in place) still live together . I currently struggle with fibromyalgia and CRPS. I homeschool my child who is 8!years old and very bright. I have on and off jobs from events, networking, conventions, pop ups etc but all those fields of work do not exist right now. Atleast not this year. My income is little to nothing ; behind on my car payments & insurance. I do not have family I can go to to seek support, especially right now as everyone is very strict on this quarantine. My father lives in the desert w/another family. My grandmother is being taken care of by one of her daughters who will not let anyone come over for the fear of the virus. (She’s a bit more dramatic about it then it needs to be) my mother lives in a motel diagnosed with COPD AND actually does have the virus. She tested positive for it last week.  My “ husband” sees me as “lazy” “ I don’t try and do anything ever “ it’s a complete narcissistic person and I’m the victim that fell right into that trap. For two years now, every month ( I started to know a pattern) that every month he would VERBALLY make me feel like nothing and I’d cry going into a deep depression. For two years it never changed, counseling did not help. I feel I tried my hardest but anything I ever do is “not right” “not good enough” and he puts in ALL the effort for which he feels is unfair. I’ve finally had enough mentally. My body is already in physical pain as it is every day and then to add him on top of it was incredibly exhausting. I fell out of any sort of love and so did he. It’s time for me to move forward with my life and child . ( this child is not technically his) so there will be no visits or child support. For my health and well-being and my sons, I have to start over somehow and I do not know where to begin. A friend suggested I’d apply on here and see what resources is be able to get while waiting for the state to hand out unemployment/assistance for homeless people etc. it’s a huge disaster.