Just trying to find my happy place!!! Just over two years ago, I found out my husband was cheating on me and we had to separate, my heart was broken and I was blindsided! About 6 months after that devastating blow, my father father suffered a massive stroke, leaving me to care for him and my mother who at the time suffered severely from frontotemporal dementia, this was the hardest experience of my life! Then after a month in the hospital, my father came back home on hospice, for 3 days until he had passed away! I being the biggest daddy’s girl, absolutely crumbled, the hardest thing was explaining to his wife of 35 years! My mom was lost without him, her twinkle in her eyes was gone! 3 months later my mom passed on her birthday, this was absolutely crushing to me! Losing both of them! My children and grandchildren did everything they could to keep me sane, the grief was deafening! Since there passing it left me in financial ruins, they did have life insurance, but it was not even enough to cover the funeral costs! But I took on all of it! While mourning my beautiful parents, and going through a bitter separation/divorce! I have managed to stay here! Stay afloat! But then I found the lump in my chest wall, and my world stopped, I went into a deep depression! Finally embodied enough courage to get it looked at and they say it appears benign! I’m terrified! And then I lost work! I run an in home daycare, I have successfully for the last 12 years, but when everyone else loses work, I lose work too! And now I’m at risk of losing my home, losing my vehicle, losing my insurance to continue to monitor this health scare that I’m still so lost on! I have never done anything like this ever, I’m scared and I don’t know what to do! I’m a mother, I have 3 adult children and 3 teenagers still at home! One of them with autism, who needs special care sometimes! I’m a MEMAW And it is my most favorite title I have ever been given! I have 6 beautiful grandchildren! I want to be the best memaw I can be, I want to honor my parents, I want to survive this grief! I am asking for help! I desperately need anything! School supplies, school clothes, groceries, household toiletries, pet food, help saving my home, help with a lawyer so I can finally divorce my ex husband! I don’t know what to do, I work as much as I can, I apply and apply, with nothing but silence! I’m begging some way shape or form! If there is one human! Who will just listen and care!