When is enough finally enough. Ive about had it with life . Theres nobody in my corner . O almost prefer it that way though. Im injured and out of work , got surgeries there delaying with both my legs and back from a work accident. I sleep 3 hours a day on Ambien and etc sleep aids added take pills for pain. I cant pay my bills , my rent , no car, no spare change. I dont get welfare bc they want to drag an ex wife to court for it. I do get some food stamps . Ive had to gimp to the food pantry and store in pain. Never had a good family . Girl im with has 4 kids and shes not any help financially because she has a severe diabetic little boy hes always sick and in the hospital and with no car or cabs were beat . And he's a nightmare . Always keeping her in tears i wipe away . They shut my power off 6 times a year and internet that we need for the kids bc we lost our cell phone coverage . I feel if I just had the nerve id end my suffering and I just dont do it. Her and I hate eachother bc the situation , but I wont let her down by walking away . I grit thru everyday to hide my tears at night in the dark. She cant get welfare either bc of the bullshit court thing like me . Shes also disabled with hip and Leg issues . But they're screwing her around . Im so tired of losing i feel cursed . Id give them everything I could . Even when I feel defeated . I get up and cook for them great meals that's about all I can stand up for with a chair by the stove I cant stand the pain to sit in it either so i lay down all day ... Ive tried GoFundMe but I dont have friends. Her family is all Rich people Dr, Therapist etc wont give her any help either . Were dying here . This Country Has No Programs For Help . I dont know where I get the power to fight everyday Im so helpless . I m only 43. Shes 45 . I need to have donations . These kids need school stuff there father's WORTHLESS. They call me Dad . And I hate it because im failing them all as the Man of the home. I literally sold all my clothes that I could sell on marketplace . I have no pants for winter . Imagine that . If somebody is out there please help me . Id rather ask strangers than anyone else to just gossip over it. Were not even bad people. These kids wont have anything for school. And the legal systems a joke . I do have lawyers working for me though . If you know any way to help please message me . The hesrt broken Man. PLEASE SHARE THIS FOR ME . IM LEANING ON THE WORLD NOW.