I haven't always had it the easiest, and i've always worked so hard. i was adopted into an abusive family that were a part of a cult, i was emotional, religiously, mentally, and physcally abused. I had my firt job at thirteen and didn't stop working for the first time until 21. shortly after 18 i fell pregnant for the first time, i was forced to place that baby for adoption. i mentally broke as all i wanted was a baby to love. i was in a therapy program for PPD and left my family. got into an abusive relationship, moved states unintentionally, had all my information stolen, got pregnant again, got an infection and almost died. shortly after the abuse caused a late term miscarriage. broken hearted and homeless i've found myself a safe situation and over a year later i am in a great relationship where we just found out we are pregnant and planning for our future. i went back to work only for my health to take a turn, for me to find out i have a heart condition (POTS) not only had i had it since childhood all of the recent trauma to my body and mind exasperated my symptoms. i can no longer do basic things like stand for long periods of time, attempt too much physical activity, or have unnecessary stressors(Taking care of children is 2nd nature). i've been trying to find remote work but can only seem to find things i have to pay to do. my boyfriend has taken up another full time job to try and is cover everything, we don't have transportation so he walks to and from work a total of 8 miles on top of 16 hour days. we are trying to find more stable housing, after we left our last place we tried to stay in cheaper hotels to save for a place. we are two people who have been working for a whole year with no give, with no family or friends who can help i'm desperate. i hate having to ask for help but sometimes we need it and right now a lot of us are struggling. i've been stuggling with so much depression this time around over not having family or friends to celbrate with and lean on. i always though i'd be surrounded by people who loved me.
i have a server Nut allergy, but will eat most anything else if it'll stay down. I am Ok with vistors but prefer we set something up before hand, and if your sick please ask. I'll be so grateful for anything that comes my way, it'll be like a blessing from above. i know i've had a lot happen but i'm trying to stay positive for my rainbow baby, and i want to be able to give them everything.