Dear ones, it's been a LOOONG haul but I am approaching the finish line, & guess what?? I'm NOT dying. I've decided to live, long, happy & joyful! Thank you for being a part of that journey. My 2015 diagnosis was termed 'incurable' but NOW, I've been released to get another surgery. ONLY because thanks to some serious STRONG DETERMINATION + commUnity the cancer has taken a long term break. Over 5.5 years now without any prescriptions. Now I state emphatically, NEVER AGAIN. They say a cure is not doable. But the scans say otherwise. Miraculous. Though the cancer spread through both lungs, sternum, lymph nodes, neck then both sides of the brain. I refused surgery & had some supernatural visions. I got the messages, & I made an agreement to heal & I have learned all that I sought during this recalculation of my system & structure. I received the answers to what I needed to know about how healing works & look forward to sharing it in a book!. Oh Yeah, I'm BACk! Now that I finally feel more 'normal' & I've built new neural pathways to access & communicate this information. DARN IT!!! I am honored to be eviscerated again in another major surgery. This will reconstruct my body & put things back into a position of physical comfort. After all I've been through (countless surgeries, then brain surgery, radiation, cranial necrosis from the radiation, fatigue, etc) I kept working. I refused to surrender. I used all my integrative tools to come back, on behalf of others with cancer. But I’m tired. This surgery is big, & long. I'm scared. I'm not afraid to say it. After this six hour surgery I must rest. A lot of ❤️‍🩹 healing lies ahead. I won't go into what it will entail but I will have multiple drains when I wake up & then many visits to check the healing. People have told me that I don't ask for help. Many people said that I didn't really tell them what I needed or even that all this was happening. Especially when the cancer spread in 2015, I kinda kept it to myself. I was working with so many people who were diagnosed, I didn't want to scare anyone. Also, I knew if anyone could heal from this it would be me. Because of my commUnity & mission, I traveled into the field & claimed myself healed, even in the darkest times. Why have I remained unshakable that I am healed? Because of all of you. Because there were, and are, so many people who have come through @YouCanThrive! over these past 20 years and I was holding space for them to continue to heal even while going through it myself. Maybe it was radical delusion, but it seemed to have worked. I'm not alone. I do not think I can do it all myself, I do not have to-- because I have built a beautiful commUnity! YOU. I know you are all here. Thank you I LOVE you. Because courage is showing you all how hard this is, I'm going public. I'm asking for help, for visitors, dog walkers, company to watch movies with me or to offer their Reiki or other modalities at my bedside. Let's share our gifts! It takes a village. Send me your healing thoughts. No worries, if you are not living locally in Chelsea, NYC you can still help. Every $18 donation http://YouCanThrive.org/donate generates a free service for someone with cancer to thrive! Tax Deductible. This is the mission, we all created this miracle together. I am celebrating after working at the bedside for 20 years this June!! This surgery and recovery is a gift of being brave for myself, so I can be there for another 20 years to help countless others. Because of you, I will come through this stronger in my mission, OUR mission. I'm thankful for all that you do to facilitate this miracle. Know that each act of kindness bolsters me & the world, it's an act of faith. Faith, Hope & Charity. The most important tenet in our life. Together we thrive! I'll be sharing more soon!