I have Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. In November I experienced another traumatic event that left me as a shell of who I once was. In December, I was admitted to a php program. Due to a oversight at the hospital I was moved to IOP and lost access to medication due to not having a personal psychiatrist. By the end of December I was disassociating to the point of not being able to communicate. I was then admitted to inpatient by January. Once I got out I was fired from my job. Then later in January I was assaulted while on a date. In April my dearly love Alaskan Malamute mix Kima passed away from cancer. I am now struggling with mental illness, grief, and chronic pain illness.