I am a disabled mom of 3 children age 14,9,4 over the last 2 years my family became homeless due to no fault of are own. we bounced from hotel to hotel with charity support to help fund nights we are finally not homeless we have an apartment But of course we had to throw away are belongings and now we don't have much for are apartment also having disabled children is very costly they need things to help there disabilities that are very expensive. we have been struggling after I pay all the bills & rent we are left with not enough money to survive the rest of the month I don't receive food stamps anymore I also don't qualify for closing allowance from DTA anymore because they say my household income is to much when you receive SSI you get a total of $1024 a month and rent is 30% of the household income including disabled childrens SSI income that is supposed to help with items for there disabilities this month September back to school completely drained my account and my children still need a lot of clothing for winter and we are left with no food trying to use food banks is hard when children with autism are very picky eaters I bounced a check and owe the bank and the grocery store $140 I thought I had overdraft protection and I did not even so I can't find help to pay at least the $35 bank fee before they close my son's bank account to receive his SSI this is very hard on my mental health I spend my days thinking who how or what can I do to make money what do I have that I can sell etc also I got a $100 small folding electric bike with a toddler seat I attached to it so I can get my daughter who has none verbal level 3 autism around the city to appointments to preschool I pooped my tire yesterday and I can't even afford a 14" tire tube, I went shopping for household supplies laundry soap wipes cleaning supplies personal hygiene products and food but the small amount of food I was able to get the other day is already gone I'm required to send a drink and snack to pre school with my daughter everyday and I can't afford it and she doesn't understand so she will grab other kids snacks she comes home starving and looks forward to eating a snack when she gets home because she refuses to eat school lunch and I can't afford to pack lunch either I already had to come up with money for her school tuition I didn't pay my full electric bill the last 2 months because I had to get school supplies and clothes for 3 kids so now my bill is $300 and this coming month I have to get my children more pants sweatshirts winter jacket boots snowsuit for my little one hate gloves rain boots and umbrellas we have none and I don't know how to do it all alone no help my oldest sons dad has passed away and my youngest 2 childrens dad can not find a job locally so he can get there so for the last 10 years I have been supporting everything alone we still have no curtains or blinds in are windows in are new apartment they cost to much money my kids always have something going on that takes extra money and that means even less food in are home at the time if it's something they don't need or can wait I say if I give you this money towards the end of the month your going to bitch there is nothing to eat and that means things my oldest wants I feel like I can't win I have been in recovery from addiction for 14 years I am a good mom I'm just in need of support. I also have to get my license back I lost it over 20 years ago and couldn't afford the fine now it's lower but still takes money needed for food and clothes and my oldest son expects me to get a car he can drive when he gets a license in a little over a year and I have to pay for driving lessons can't afford full driving school and pay for him and me to pay driving school to use them and there car to take license test on Bec we don't have anything who can help.
we have no dietary restrictions or allergies we have some special foods one of my children with only eat bec she has level 3 nonverbal autism so she will only eat hotdogs pizza french fries cans of spaghetti and meatballs Ramon noodles pancakes waffles and she is a junk food lover chips popcorn juice ice cream it's better then not eating Bec she won't eat anything if she doesn't like it she will throw it. it sucks that I have no siblings and both my parents passed away I had 2 amazing people one is like a step dad to me since I was little girl and the other was my best friends cousin and very close to my mother and me I always called him my uncle he was my son's everything they did anything together he was my son's only other family besides my stepfather his grandfather but my uncle passed away and now my step dad is 70 had open heart surgery 2 months ago in the rehab center after he fell and broke his hip he since had went home with many visiting nurses but now back to hospital because he has an infection in his hip . I feel horrible my oldest son has no family and my other 2 there grandparents used to help now they don't care . I am working on getting a my record sealed from over 20 years ago so I can be a school bus monitor.