I had been feeling sick since March of this year. It had gotten worse by April. I went to a private hospital and the testing was too much money for me so the doctor said my blood was good and I most likely had an ulcer. Prescribed me zofran and anti acid medication OTC for that. A month or so went by and I was doing pretty good but all of a sudden the symptoms came back. I remember the doctor telling me if they did to go to St. Davids Hospital. I waited a couple days but I got to a point where I stopped eating and had noticed I lost 35lbs at that point. I went to St Davids on June 4th and at first they thought it was my gallbladder. However after getting an ultra sound they wanted to do a CT scan with iodine I believe. The CT showed a mass in my ascending colon. A big one. I had to prep for a colonoscopy for the next day that night. I was alone as my family is deceased and I don't have a lot of friends. I am a bit of a loner. I had the colonoscopy done and it came back positive for cancer. They told me my mass was almost causing a blockage. I had an apt to get it removed on the 7th but I couldn't get a referral in time. I got one and the surgery is scheduled for the 16th. I will be in the hospital for 3 days they said. Then bed rest for a week or 2 (maybe 3). Then off to chemo. I am afraid. I am really afraid. I am 49 and I still have dreams of going to see the carnival in Venice, or the Alps in Switzerland. I want to rock climb again. I want to be able to eat again.