!!!TRIGGER WARNING!!!Mention of Suicide!!! I've never really been they type to ask for help, more accurately, I have trouble letting people help me. To be clear, this isn't me asking for help. Honestly, I have no idea why I'm doing this. Okay, so, I've had many mental health issues during my not-so-many years on this planet, many going un-diagnosed and untreated for a long time. Starting with the most obvious one, depression, which lead to suicidal thoughts and attempts on my own life, the first one when i was only 13. Then came the body image and self-esteem issues. I eventually started gaining a lot of weight very quickly as a result of emotional binge eating disorder. Food has been my comfort for a long time, I can't remember a time when it wasn't the answer. It became a replacement for other methods of harming myself when burning and cutting myself was no longer an option. So I guess my problem is, I'm stuck. I want to lose the copious amount of extra weight, but before I can do that, I need to be okay mentally. That's where i get stuck.